Austin Hesse Memorial website
This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Austin Hesse who passed away on August 24, 2006. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
On behalf of the family I would like to thank each and every visitor here and ask you to take the time to read the entire site. This site is not only dedicated to the memory of Austin but also to spread the word of the horrors of meth addiction. Feel free to give this link to anyone who might benefit from it.
Thank you for all the kind words. Our hearts and prayers go out to all of you who are battling your own addictions or trying to deal with the addictions of your loved ones.
You may contact me by clicking the link at the bottom of this page and I will be happy to forward any appropiate material to the immediate family.
This may be the story of one man's addiction but it is the story of a whole country's battle to gain our live and the lives of our children back.
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For all of our family and friends that have stood by Austin in his struggles over the years, we thank you. Austin thanks you.
For all of the people that turned away as if we were a bad situation and needed to be avoided, we hope that Austin's memories will touch a part of your heart and help you to reach out to others in need and recognize kindness and how drugs can take over someone lives. To be more compassionate humans.
Please take a stand in the fight against drugs, especially Crystal Meth. It kills and it destroys everything and everybody around it.
Austin's memory will live on forever in the hearts of everyone that knew him. In the hearts of everyone that knows how drugs can take over a life. For Austin, please don't blame him, it wasn't his fault. We will love him forever.
God Bless all of you!
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Supportive links
http://www.kci.org/
http://www.scotty-simmons.memory-of.com
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Clinton County Iowa Substance Abuse Help
Please Call New Directions: 563-243-2124
METH
I destroy homes I tear families apart
Take your children and thats just the start.
Im more costly than diamonds, More precious than
gold
the sorrow I bring will be a sight to behold.
If you need me , remember Im easily found
I live all around you in schools and in town
I live with the rich I live with the poor
I live down the street and maybe next door
Im made in a lab , but not like you think
I can be made under your kitchen sink
In your childs closet and in the woods
If this scares you to death it certainly should.
I have many names but theres one you know best
Im sure you heard of me , my name is Crystal Meth
MY power is awesome, try me you'll see
but if you do you may never break free
Just try me once and I might let you go
But try me twice and I'll own your soul
When I possess you , you'll steal and you'll lie
You do what you have to just to get high
The crimes youll commit for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms
You'll lie to your mother and still from your dad
When you see their tears you should feel sad
but you'll forget your morals and how you were raised
I'll be your conscience , I'll teach you my ways.
I take KIDS from parents and PARENTS from kids
I turn people from God and separate friends
I'll take everything from you , your looks and your pride
I'll be with you always , right by your side
You'll give up everything your family your home
your friends your money then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take untill you have nothing more to give, when Im finished with you ..you'll be lucky to LIVE.
If you try me bewarned-this is no game
If given a chance I'll drive you in sane.
I'll ravish your body , I'll controll your mind
I'll own you completely your soul will be mine
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed
The voices you'll hear from inside your head
The sweats the shakes the visions you'll see
I want you to know these are all gifts from me
But then its too late and you'll know in your heart
That you are mine and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me they always do
But you came to me ..not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told
But you challenged my power and chose to be bold
You could have said "NO" and just walked away
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master , you'll be my slave
I'll even go with you , when you go to your grave.
Now that youv'e met me what will you do?
Will you try me or not? Its all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell
| Mom |
| Mom |
| Chris Lowster |
Anyone who needs help with meth addiction or just has questions, please visit my forum at: http://meth-kills.com/forum/
| Amanda Miller |
Thank you so much for sharing ur memories I am a recovering drug addict I have been clean for 2 years it has been a very long and hard struggle i didnt do the rehab program or the meetings i was strong enough to do it on my own. The drug almost took everything good out of my life I feel very lucky to have a family that never gave up on me. I am slowly getting to know myself again and Austins story really inspires me. My heart goes out to u and ur family and i hope u can reach as many ppl as possible before its too late for them. U will be in my prayers always ty so much for makin this web site i know it will help alot of ppl again thank u so much
Always Amanda
| Mom |
Today is September 8, 2007. 1 year tomorrow Austin we had a beautiful funeral service for you.
Today, we walked in your memory in the 1st annual Walk for Hope. Daniel ran the 3 miles for you. I didn't think I could walk the entire 3 miles with my health, but I was successful, I felt you there with me. Your picture on my heart. You are forever in my heart and soul.
I love you Austin and miss you so.
| Angie Fallowfield | A lost soul |
Hi! My name is Angie and I am a greatful recovering addict! Clean and sober by Gods Grace and I am greatful I know that today! January 23, 2007 is a day I will never forget, and my soul was lost in active addiciton. I felt so hopeless, helpless, and lost. I felt my only option to quit using would be to end my life. I was on probation, and I knew I was gonna end up back in jail. I was in so much pain, and my life was so out of control. I had left a message to my therapist telling her I had taken some pills, and I had also left a suicide letter for her. I do not remember doing this, but I was told later. My therapist was even suppose to go into work that next day, and for some reason went in. She listened to my message, and called 911 right away! Paraamedicts found me unconscience on my bedroom floor, and I had been that way for several hours. They carried my lifeless body out, and later I would find out that I had died 9 times. I flatlined 9 times, and was on a breathing machine for 3 days. The only thing I remember is waking up with a tube down my throat, but my therapist was there by my bedside. Little would I know this would be the beginning of a new life, and a life I've never known. All I ever known was drugs and alcohol. I was in and out of treatment centers, hospitals, instutions, and even jail. The reality is that we can get help with an addiction, but until we are willing and ready that we will finally get the help we need. I died 15 months ago, but now I have another chance at life! I've been clean every since my overdosed, and I finally get to give back what was given to me! Thanks for letting me share!
| Deborah | I am so sorry.. |
I an a recovering meth addict...its harder than hell. I have 7 days clean today, and its a struggle every second of the day. i have 4 kids who love me so much...my youngest is 12, and she looks to me for everything. Her father recently found out about my use and got supervised visits..my older kids being the supervisors...I have never been arrested, work as a nurse, and no one would ever suspect i've been a daily user for over 20 years..I've finally realised that this disease can and will kill...everyime I look in my babys face, i cry because i see how much i've failed her, and how much she needs me. I'm in tears now from reading your story, and from, for the first time, being open about all this. I can only imagine how devistating losing a child so needlessly must be..I know if it was my child ..well..i dont know if i could go on. Its stories like yours that, and my little girls hopeful eyes that are keeping me clean so far. I'm in an outpatient program, and i understand only too well the levels of hopelessness, sadness, and desparation this illness brings.
Thank you for sharing your pain...If it affects one person the way it has affected me, then your coming out with this matters..and i sincerly believe that it matters maybe more than you know..
I'm sorry for your pain, but , as an addict, knowing how hard it can be...maybe, and hopefully you can get some comfort, and solace in knowing that your sons battle..his pain...is finally over...I'm just sorry it had to end so tragically...but, he is at peace..where he finally can rest.
Thank You for sharing
| Shelly Nagy | From a Stranger |
| Laurri Lowe | Rosies Mom |
Sending tender hugs from my broken heart to yours. I hope one day we will just know why.....
| Angel Marie | God Bless You! |
I know too well the devastation meth addiction.
I myself fought with the endless urge to commit suicide.
If it weren't for my teenagers, I wouldn't be alive today.
I couldn't hurt them like that.
So I lived.
But it didn't feel like I was living.
I was empty.
An empty shell.
I was no longer able to feel.
I couldn't feel pleasure.
It was a dark world.
Thank God I was eventually diagnosed with bipolar, so mental health help and the right medicine brought me back to life.
I now appreciate the beauty of life.
Thank you so much for your mission of educating people about meth addiction.
Hugs,
Angel Marie
